Sunday, October 18, 2009

Part 4 (the epilogue; or, practice)

Do you ever feel this vague, plaguing feeling that can be described as some combination of listless, lonely and unsatiable? That's the context for this vignette:

"I'm hurting"

*silence*

"I'm hurting and I feel distant from you."

"What do you want me to do? I can't fix you. I tried. I don't have what you want."

"Now I'm hurting and I feel rejected by you for it."

*crushing blow*

*move to reestablish physical and relational contact*

"I'm so sorry love. I was wrong to reject you for your struggle."

"I feel better already."

"But I wasn't -- and never will be -- what you ultimately need."

"But I am feeling your mercy in my weakness."

*and doesn't that make tangible for us -- and point us to -- what/Who we
do ultimately need?*

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Dave Harvey: "I spent years taking Kimm's sins personally, inserting myself into the center as if all sins were against me. I was reacting to her rather than caring for her if she was struggling with something."

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